Our journey begins

First few days, I was still in bit of shock but I kept reminding myself that God would provide.

Sept 7, 2012 - We had a pastoral meeting at a hotel over the weekend.  My husband and I decided we would let our kids know first.  The conversation was priceless....While in the hotel room, we cal the girls in to the bedroom portion of the suite. This is the parts of the conversation I recall.

Husband:   "Hey your mother has something to tell you guys."
Daughter (14 yrs old):   "What, she's not pregnant again, is she?".....(then silence falls in the room)
Husband:    "Actually yeah" (My husband and I look at each other and smile)
Daughter: "nooooo!" (I think she is in denial- she turns to me and I nod)
Daughter: "nooooo! (Yep she is in denial too).  She is giggling now and moving her arms around
Daughter:  "For real?, no! Dad is just kidding right?"
Me:  "I'm serious, yes I am." (She begins laughing hysterically and comes over and hugs me tight).

All the while this is going on my 9 year old is looking from one person to the other and the minute I say the last sentence she slaps her forehead and lets herself fall on the bed. My husband says "Wow, I can't believe you didn't believe me, it took your mother to convince you guys".

September 8, 2012- During our morning session with the rest of the Pastors we break the news to them.  We pray for the new baby on the way.  I am feeling better already, I can't believe this is happening so quick, but even though I am scared I am also excited.

Sometime during that week I call my BFF and tell her the news, she knows I'm scared.  But she is excited for my family.  Makes me feel better, (even though we are texting I can see her smiling from ear to ear). She reassures me God will provide a way.

During this time God reminds me of something I said to Him just a few weeks ago.  I told God during a Sunday service, "God  I surrender everything  to you, do with me as you will".  I could almost hear saying to me then, "how much have you really surrendered?"