Seeing you for the First Time

October 5, 2012 - Can't wait to leave work, my ultrasound appointment is at 5:30 pm.  Finally, we will know when our baby is due to arrive.  I am looking forward to seeing him/her for the first time.

I arrive to my appointment a few minutes early.  I check in the from desk and they ask me if I drank plenty of water.  "YES I did", I tell the woman at the desk.  (I feel like my bladder is going to explode, but those are the small sacrifices a woman will do for her child).  After a few minutes I get called in.

As I am laying on the bed getting ready to see my baby for the first time, I can't help but smile.  I know its way too early to know if its a boy or a girl.  I think I must be having a girl, I don't feel anything like I did with Matthew.  The technician puts that slimy liquid on my stomach and then puts the ultrasound transducer on my stomach (I only recently learned that's what it called).  The first image of my baby pops up on the screen.

"Awe, there's my baby.  My little peanut."  I watch my baby move around floating around in my womb. I see the heart pulsating and I just stare in awe.  There is my baby, tiny as can be, but yet I can see so much of him/her. God never ceases to amaze me, how all this can work.

The technician begins to measure and then she lets me hear the heart....ah yes, there it is, the sound of ponies galloping again....I ask her if she can tell me when I am due but she explains that my doctor will have to give me that date, but she winks at me and then points to the screen. I see a date of 05/10/2013 displayed on the screen and I smile at her.  I say OK, thank you.  She says you're welcome and winks a second time.

She then looks at me and says do you have other children?  I explain to her that I do, as a matter a fact I have 3 others.  She says, Oh by the way you are smiling I thought it was your first.  I tell her that I just simply can't help it, it happens every time  I see my babies.

After she is done, I ask her.  "Can you do me a favor, can you print me a picture?  I would like to show my husband."  She says, "I don't have a printer but I will save them on disk for you instead".

I leave the hospital close to 6:15 PM, I am meeting my husband at church for youth night.  I hold the disk containing our baby's pictures close to my heart. (31 Weeks to go, I make sure to change the due date on my "expecting" phone app).  From this day on, every Friday my phone gives me a reminder how many weeks I am , and milestones for baby)

                                                         
                                            Baby Plaza (Measuring 9 weeks old on 10/05/2012)

That night before we go to bed I share the two pictures above with my husband.  He sees them and says..."There's my little peanut"  I tell him, that's I what called the baby earlier too"my little peanut"...

It is simply amazing to me how God has designed us.  How can this baby that is so small and whom I haven't even met yet, bring so much joy.  Just a tiny little being yet perfectly designed by God himself.  If we can love someone this deep (without knowing them still) , how much more can God's love be for each of us?   I find myself humbled yet again, how God can look down at each of His children and know each one of us to our very core (the good and the bad) and still love us much more than we can comprehend or deserve.